God has an amazing and creative way to share gifts with us. Today, spirit did it again and gave me an abundance of gifts to start out 2016 with. First, I was blessed to see another year (made it to 30, I’m a big kid now!) and spend that time with family and friends. Second, I got accepted to graduate school and started last week. Third, I was in attendance at an amazing and uplifting Queens Round Table conference entitled “Reclaim Your Crown,” which also included two workshops.
From that awesome workshop, I took a lot of important and powerful messages with me today. I was reminded that, in spite of all that I do or plan to do to hold down my kingdom, it is important for me to find balance and take care of myself.
Man, I needed that reminder!
There was also one question that arose during the workshop that I really wanted to reflect on and journal about this evening. That question was, “what are three things you appreciate about yourself?” It’s a very important question and, to be honest, it was a hard one for me. After reflecting on it, I was only able to answer two and that’s okay right now. I’m aware now and will do a better job to think about myself in a positive light and not focus so much on the negatives or what I used to consider to be “weaknesses.” It is absolutely imperative that we understand the importance of growth. However, growth can be achieved in a more positive way, whilst highlighting the best in myself at all times.
What are three things that I appreciate about myself?
1. I appreciate the fact that I’m ever-changing.
For so many years people made me feel like I was all over the place. I was told things like:
“You like too many things.”
“Focus on one thing.”
“Girl, what are you getting yourself into now.”
These few quotes would constantly circle my mental and keep me stagnant. It took me a long time to remove the toxic words out of my psyche and to appreciate this part of me. I’m in love with many things and that’s okay! I’m always willing to learn and grow and with growth comes change. I’m always finding ways to elevate myself. I started out as a blank canvas. As I go through life, I’m adding many colors to my canvas. I started with the basic primary colors. From those primary colors, I’m creating more colors and from that creation, I’m creating more and so forth. Some may interpret my canvas as a colorful mess, but there’s beauty in my mess! There’s an artistic quality to it and, even more importantly, it’s my canvas and I hold the paint brush!
2. I’m in love with love!
I freaking love, love. I love humans, animals, plants, this earth, the galaxy, I just freaking love everything. I also love to forgive. Not only because it’s the right thing to do for the world, but because it’s very important to forgive for myself. Why? Well, I need peace within. We all do. How can I move forward with love and through life when there is no peace within? If there is no enemy within, then no enemy outside of me can interfere with my peace.
Thank you Valencia and for the rest of the amazing women who’ve helped turn this workshop into food for my soul.
The initiation has begun.
December 6, 2015 was my official 30 day countdown transitioning from my 20’s into my 30’s!
I have been looking forward to my 30’s for some time now, and to be honest, I’m not exactly sure why. However, I do know that I have been blossoming into a stronger, more spiritual, and loving human being. There is a shift happening inside of me and it’s steadily leading me to a higher state of awareness. I have been opening my Third Eye and trying to become a better woman each and every day.
As I say goodbye to my 20’s and hello to my 30’s, I thought of some things I can do to start my celebration.
First – I made a list of almost everything I wanted to do in the past (at least most of what I can remember) but never set time to do. *I will update my blog on everything I did on my list.
Second – Meditation, prayer, exercise, write, read, etc. I will focus on everything that I’m grateful for and practice not complaining about anything in my life. If I find myself complaining, sad, angry or if I feel like my anxiety is kicking in, I will read my daily affirmations. My focus is to bring harmony and balance, and to become one with my temple, mind, and soul.
Third – No sex for 30 days. I do have a boyfriend who has been very supportive about my decision. (Shout out to your strength babe. ‘You the real MVP!’). I wanted to take the days leading up to my 30th to focus on womb and auric cleansing which I will explain further in a future post. I want to also use the time to focus my sexual energy on something more creative, spiritual, or both!
Fourth – This will be the beginning (or restart) to a cleaner diet. I practiced a vegan diet for 40 days earlier this year but, I need to I still feel the need to educate myself more about Veganism. Over the years, I have gradually cut pork, red meat, refined sugar, processed meats, and other kinds of processed foods out of my diet. I really don’t want to put a label on my diet. However, I will make sure that my chicken and eggs are vegetable fed and make sure that my fish is wild caught. I will also consume more fresh vegetables and fruits and eat meat more sparingly.
Life is so amazing and I look forward to continuing my journey and I pray that God and my ancestors continue to provide me with love and protection. – Ase
How do you prepare for you birthday? Let me know below!
Walk by Faith
Walk with Grace
Walk with Strength
Walk with Confidence
Whichever you choose, if not all, never stop walking
Your journey is filled with many paths
Live and Love
That, to me, is growth
That, to me, is part of learning who you are.